They are calling for their queen. In Helaena’s eyes, there is a distance, a light gone out, and she turns in the carriage as if she cannot hear the voices or taste their cries. Alicent knows she can hear their words all too well. Queen Helaena! Lady Helaena! Sweet Helaena, they killed your beloved son! A curse on the pretender. A curse on Rhaenyra the Cruel.
It is all too much, and sweet Helaena loves her silver-haired sister as dearly as the little girl she once was.
—the same way Alicent loved a dying Aemma, the same way Viserys clung to a brother who brought him nothing but grief, the way he clung to his daughter’s claim until he could no longer see past the shadows in his eyes. The same way he gasped and sobbed and bled his way to a bitter end. The way Alicent wept for Rhaenyra’s mother as much as she did for her own, the way she cried when she held her baby girl for the first time and saw for her daughter all the same pain she had once endured. Sweet Helaena, who loves with abandon and suffers for it. Poor Dyana, pale with quivers as the tea sank down her gullet and Alicent wiped a drop from her lips. Dear, young Jaehaerys, who dies again every time the stitches in his neck threaten to come undone.
It is the sad things that are the most beautiful. The day they bury her grandson, there are no tears Alicent can shed, for the dragonfire that burns his body is as pure gold as the heart her daughter is bleeding into the earth.