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what the fuck is izotope doing
a little miffed at this recent trend of plugins that just make bad mixing decisions for you. you can achieve these mixes with multiband saturation, and it won’t have random gluey static in between every sound
what the fuck is izotope doing
3-slugcat-pilots-7-ornithopters asked:
Have you at all considered tagging posts based on whether it’s Amber or Avery? I’ve seen other people in similar situations do it before
I don’t think we’re separate enough for this to really make sense, you might have noticed I haven’t really adopted that first person plural writing style, because there’s continuity between us. There’s an equally valid future where I discover that we’re just two different moods for the same guy, more information needed.
if (big if) I was a traumagenic system, the story wouldnt be that I made amber at some point. The conclusion would be that Avery is a non-human alter that I formed in childhood, and then I lived mainly as her for many years until the cracks started showing.
im considering it, usually creative self love exercises are voluntary and dont come with a dizzying realization that you were actually someone else's creative self love exercise from several years ago. keeping alternative hypotheses in mind though.
letting amber resurface and being like “damn, thats what its like to feel like i’m the age that i am”
if (big if) I was a traumagenic system, the story wouldnt be that I made amber at some point. The conclusion would be that Avery is a non-human alter that I formed in childhood, and then I lived mainly as her for many years until the cracks started showing.
im considering it, usually creative self love exercises are voluntary and dont come with a dizzying realization that you were actually someone else’s creative self love exercise from several years ago. keeping alternative hypotheses in mind though.
if (big if) I was a traumagenic system, the story wouldnt be that I made amber at some point. The conclusion would be that Avery is a non-human alter that I formed in childhood, and then I lived mainly as her for many years until the cracks started showing.
Feeling Avery come online is extremely trippy. Like I'll get triggered by something or ruminate too long, and then its like I can feel her in my chest getting more and more agitated until she emerges like a xenomorph and i just am her now
The reason I'll probably end up adopting a plural identity is this, like I thought I was nurturing Amber as this presence that was apart from me, but then I realized I have just as many experiences being Amber and feeling Avery as the foreign presence. It's very strange.
thsi shit is so dumb
Feeling Avery come online is extremely trippy. Like I'll get triggered by something or ruminate too long, and then its like I can feel her in my chest getting more and more agitated until she emerges like a xenomorph and i just am her now
The reason I’ll probably end up adopting a plural identity is this, like I thought I was nurturing Amber as this presence that was apart from me, but then I realized I have just as many experiences being Amber and feeling Avery as the foreign presence. It’s very strange.
Feeling Avery come online is extremely trippy. Like I’ll get triggered by something or ruminate too long, and then its like I can feel her in my chest getting more and more agitated until she emerges like a xenomorph and i just am her now
being transfem and autistic gives u an aura that instantly transforms people into stock schoolyard bully characters from the 90s
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